In the blink of an eye

Lately I have realized that one can fall in love with an idea of something and not realize it until it is too late. Right now I am not doing my quiet times like I should I have been lost in my own world with too much time on my hands that I feel I have time to do them later...but do I really have time later?! I am here now and I do not know when my time is done. This lesson I have learned hit me hard last month and it still comes back to me every once in a while. For instance, this upcoming weekend is going to be hard on me, she was supposed to be there most likely rooming with me and getting her award instead it will be her parents getting it for her. And again I will feel the pain of her not being there, being her crazy self, and making the best of life. She will always be a part of me!

Thoughts on my mind

So does anyone ever feel like you have everyone pour there stuff onto you and you then have no one to lean on? I feel ever since my best friend moved, I have not found someone to the same extent. I do not mind people leaning on me, I am a great listener, yet I need someone there for me. That do not judge me, does not care what I say, and listens to me and my opinions; then to know that they will tell no one.

Then another thing that has been on my mind is just the fact how when you are with younger people than yourself, you can just act crazy, weird, and just let loose. Yet, when you are with your peers you cannot be yourself and not care what they think of you; why does it matter? Why do we care so much about how people see us?

The beginning...

As the winds blows on this gorgeous day
No one knows what goes on inside
as the wheels turn and time goes by
I still hide
yet here I am bearing my soul
not knowing where I am to go
the words on this page are me...
and me alone
no strings attached
I am here "naked" before you all!