In the blink of an eye

Lately I have realized that one can fall in love with an idea of something and not realize it until it is too late. Right now I am not doing my quiet times like I should I have been lost in my own world with too much time on my hands that I feel I have time to do them later...but do I really have time later?! I am here now and I do not know when my time is done. This lesson I have learned hit me hard last month and it still comes back to me every once in a while. For instance, this upcoming weekend is going to be hard on me, she was supposed to be there most likely rooming with me and getting her award instead it will be her parents getting it for her. And again I will feel the pain of her not being there, being her crazy self, and making the best of life. She will always be a part of me!