Well I am currently off on a new adventure! I am looking forward to it; right now I am not sure where God is leading me or what He wants me to do, but in due time I will know.
College life is definitely different than living with your parents, and right now I have a lot of free time since my classes do not start until Tuesday. I have a feeling I am going to love it here, cause I already do! There is so much to tell, yet my mind and my body are currently not up for it. I just thought I would update you all on what has been going on. :)
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
Reassurance
Philippians 4:6-7
"Don't worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all that he has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard you hearts and mind as you live in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:13
"For I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength."
Philippians 4:19
"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus."
These are just reassuring words to me right now (see previous blog). Another thing happened tonight but instead it is with my sister. I am holding up this family right now, since my dad is not here at the moment and to hear those words in Philippians 4:13 He will help me and be there for me right now.
"Don't worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all that he has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard you hearts and mind as you live in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:13
"For I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength."
Philippians 4:19
"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus."
These are just reassuring words to me right now (see previous blog). Another thing happened tonight but instead it is with my sister. I am holding up this family right now, since my dad is not here at the moment and to hear those words in Philippians 4:13 He will help me and be there for me right now.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Goodbyes?! and Life's Frustrations
Okay so goodbye is such a weird concept! Since I am leaving for school next week I have been having a lot of goodbyes, and it has gotten me thinking. Normally it is like bye see ya next week, yet now it is like BYE I will not see you until you come back. Yet, why is it like that for goodbyes only if we are leaving for a long time, because what if you do not get to see that person again after that so so bye...or maybe you did not say goodbye to them at all. What then? I know it is morbid to always wonder if that person may die, but you never know. That's why I have learned even if you are in a fight with someone or whatever you always want to leave on a good note.
I have no clue if I am getting my point across or not, but all I know is that I feel that the goodbyes I am getting now are like the ones we all should give each other on a daily basis. If anything it shows that person how much you truly care for them.
Then a complete turn from that topic...I kind of just want to scream right now in frustration of life. It could be worse right? According to my mom it could not be however. So are drier broke tonight, which just set off my mom it was her last straw. And when she breaks down I try to help her, but I do not know how and I try to ask God for the words. Yet, I feel like I cannot help her. I love her and hate to see her in this pain. She just feels like God is not listening to her and that He is not helping her in any way. To be really transparent, right now it does not help the fact that we have like no money what so ever we are not even making it from pay check to pay check anymore to pay the bills. I had to pay for part of my sisters schooling because we did not have the money and now I am scrapping by with what I have. I am trying to put my trust in God with all of it but it can be hard. I think for me I try to avoid thinking about my problems, instead of facing them. I think for me it is even hard for me to listen to my mom tell me how bad it is because I do not want to believe it. Yet, it is still there. Also, the job that my dad has means most of the time he is out of town during the weeks and that does not help the situation either and he does not get paid very much.
I guess right now whoever reads this please pray for my family for patience and trust for God's plan, and to help us out financially.
I have no clue if I am getting my point across or not, but all I know is that I feel that the goodbyes I am getting now are like the ones we all should give each other on a daily basis. If anything it shows that person how much you truly care for them.
Then a complete turn from that topic...I kind of just want to scream right now in frustration of life. It could be worse right? According to my mom it could not be however. So are drier broke tonight, which just set off my mom it was her last straw. And when she breaks down I try to help her, but I do not know how and I try to ask God for the words. Yet, I feel like I cannot help her. I love her and hate to see her in this pain. She just feels like God is not listening to her and that He is not helping her in any way. To be really transparent, right now it does not help the fact that we have like no money what so ever we are not even making it from pay check to pay check anymore to pay the bills. I had to pay for part of my sisters schooling because we did not have the money and now I am scrapping by with what I have. I am trying to put my trust in God with all of it but it can be hard. I think for me I try to avoid thinking about my problems, instead of facing them. I think for me it is even hard for me to listen to my mom tell me how bad it is because I do not want to believe it. Yet, it is still there. Also, the job that my dad has means most of the time he is out of town during the weeks and that does not help the situation either and he does not get paid very much.
I guess right now whoever reads this please pray for my family for patience and trust for God's plan, and to help us out financially.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Ecstatic
Things are finally coming together! YAY! I have been talking with one of my roommates and it seems like we are going to get along real well. So I am excited about that. That's all for now.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Fully Charged
Right now it is silent in my house, but truly how silent?! As the fan whirls around and makes this clicking noise, and as I type the sound of the keys clattering away. Can life ever be silent? I guess maybe if you put heavy duty ear plugs in.
I was reading a couple of my friends blogs and got to thinking about my quote unquote quiet times. Are those times really spent listening to God and being silent? Even over this past weekend, when I helped out with the Edge camping trip we talked about how it takes at least a half an hour to get the clutter out of your mind before you can be fully focused on your quiet time with God. I know lately for me my mind has been running a mile a minute with getting ready to go to school, and making sure everything is in order, and making it a point to hang out with my friends before I leave. Where does God come in all of it though? I think I have been so caught up in my life, I have been lagging, yet again, in just being in God's presence and doing His will for me. Luckily for me God gives me grace and mercy!
It is definitely hard to just stop those thoughts from flowing and just listen.
So kind of a side note from that when I was having one of my quiet times and just sitting still I had an image of a low battery needing to be recharged. For me this image is so true in my life lately. I have been on that constant go and I have not been recharged, by not having the kind of quiet times I should be. In a sense I need to plug myself back into God so I can be fully charged, because without Him I am nothing, dead in a way, no true life within me.
If I am not charged how can I spread the power?!
I was reading a couple of my friends blogs and got to thinking about my quote unquote quiet times. Are those times really spent listening to God and being silent? Even over this past weekend, when I helped out with the Edge camping trip we talked about how it takes at least a half an hour to get the clutter out of your mind before you can be fully focused on your quiet time with God. I know lately for me my mind has been running a mile a minute with getting ready to go to school, and making sure everything is in order, and making it a point to hang out with my friends before I leave. Where does God come in all of it though? I think I have been so caught up in my life, I have been lagging, yet again, in just being in God's presence and doing His will for me. Luckily for me God gives me grace and mercy!
It is definitely hard to just stop those thoughts from flowing and just listen.
So kind of a side note from that when I was having one of my quiet times and just sitting still I had an image of a low battery needing to be recharged. For me this image is so true in my life lately. I have been on that constant go and I have not been recharged, by not having the kind of quiet times I should be. In a sense I need to plug myself back into God so I can be fully charged, because without Him I am nothing, dead in a way, no true life within me.
If I am not charged how can I spread the power?!
Monday, August 4, 2008
Getting Back to my Purpose
So I have decided that I need to get back to where I was! Right now I have been slacking, not fully there, I have not been pursuing him like I have before. I do not know quite what it is but all I know is I am excited for tonight to get back to him and be in his presence.
Another thing that I am ready for is this new chapter in my life, because as of right now something is lagging. In three weeks I will be off in Whitewater, Wisconsin; I do not know what God has in store for me up there, but I want to be prepared for whatever it is. I want to be able to be used by him!
Another thing that I am ready for is this new chapter in my life, because as of right now something is lagging. In three weeks I will be off in Whitewater, Wisconsin; I do not know what God has in store for me up there, but I want to be prepared for whatever it is. I want to be able to be used by him!
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