Goodbyes?! and Life's Frustrations

Okay so goodbye is such a weird concept! Since I am leaving for school next week I have been having a lot of goodbyes, and it has gotten me thinking. Normally it is like bye see ya next week, yet now it is like BYE I will not see you until you come back. Yet, why is it like that for goodbyes only if we are leaving for a long time, because what if you do not get to see that person again after that so so bye...or maybe you did not say goodbye to them at all. What then? I know it is morbid to always wonder if that person may die, but you never know. That's why I have learned even if you are in a fight with someone or whatever you always want to leave on a good note.
I have no clue if I am getting my point across or not, but all I know is that I feel that the goodbyes I am getting now are like the ones we all should give each other on a daily basis. If anything it shows that person how much you truly care for them.

Then a complete turn from that topic...I kind of just want to scream right now in frustration of life. It could be worse right? According to my mom it could not be however. So are drier broke tonight, which just set off my mom it was her last straw. And when she breaks down I try to help her, but I do not know how and I try to ask God for the words. Yet, I feel like I cannot help her. I love her and hate to see her in this pain. She just feels like God is not listening to her and that He is not helping her in any way. To be really transparent, right now it does not help the fact that we have like no money what so ever we are not even making it from pay check to pay check anymore to pay the bills. I had to pay for part of my sisters schooling because we did not have the money and now I am scrapping by with what I have. I am trying to put my trust in God with all of it but it can be hard. I think for me I try to avoid thinking about my problems, instead of facing them. I think for me it is even hard for me to listen to my mom tell me how bad it is because I do not want to believe it. Yet, it is still there. Also, the job that my dad has means most of the time he is out of town during the weeks and that does not help the situation either and he does not get paid very much.
I guess right now whoever reads this please pray for my family for patience and trust for God's plan, and to help us out financially.