Waiting, attempting that is...

"Average Girl" by Barlow Girl
So what I'm not your average girlI don't meet the standards of this world
Chasing after boys is not my thing
See I'm waiting for a wedding ring
No more datingI'm just waitingLike sleeping beauty
My prince will come for meNo more dating I'm just waiting
'Cause God is writing my love story
Boys are bad that's certainly not true
'Cause God's preparing one for youIf you get tired waiting till he comes
Gods arms are the perfect place to run
Sleep that's the only thing
For me 'cause when I sleep
GodsPreparing one for me


Easier said then done I would like to say I am putting God in full control of my relationships but at times it is hard especially right now...I keep playing games and I need to stop and focus on God. I have this battle inside of my head that I do not need to have in my head if I put my trust in Him! I keep going oh he likes me or no he doesn't or I have these jealous feelings. I just need to figure out what God wants and if I am just to be focusing on Him and only Him or if this guy I like is the thing I am supposed to going after.
I am trying that is all I can do...

Making Ourselves Visible

Invisible
As I walk the halls they don’t notice me
Or they pretend I am not there
They know of my background
But do they know the underneath

They judge me for what they see
I have to hide the real me
I cannot keep living this lie
I make myself invisible

I don’t want them to find out
I have been ridiculed before

Let them see the real me
The underneath
I want to become visible

For some reason this poem right now just fits what is going on and not even necessarily with me but yet I have felt this way where I cannot be myself and I hide away. I would rather be invisible than be visible at times. Put on the smile and go!

I am tired of it, sometimes I have no idea what it is but am!

Lord so many people are hurting, I can just feel there weight upon me, I have never seen it so much. Fill them, fill me. Help take the pain away, the trials, block the devil from attacking.

Let us as brothers and sisters in Christ build each other up in Him and be able to speak to each other about what is going on in their lives. I am tired of the mediocre.

Trust seems to have been a huge issue as well

1 Peter 5:7 "Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you."

Psalm 55:22 "Give all your burdens to the Lord, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall."

Have patience in His plan...now that is a hard statement I keep giving it to Him yet keep falling back into the same rut. I need to guard my heart...

Psalm 27:14 "Wait patiently for the Lord, be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord."

Well God you keep using my story and me in other peoples lives and keep realizing why these things happened. You are truly amazing! Continue to pour into me.

There is so much more to be said...

God is good even through the down times he is always with us in the fires (Daniel 3)