Trying to Understand...

Why? God why? Why must I feel like this....? This feeling of emptiness and wanting of someone...someone that is tangible... I need him...where is he? I am trying to wait...right now it is unbearable! I just want to know who it is? where he is? If it is him or not? Show me God? I want to talk to him yet I dont I am waiting for him to make the move. Why must it be so hard?! Why am I in this funk?! I went from a high to a low... Why do I want him so much right now? it does not make sense to me....especially if it is not him....God I need an answer! I know I still need to fix me...God what is going on? Why???